Thursday, November 6, 2008
I am outside the boundaries of physics.
I am outer space inside a small body held together by sinuous tendons, chalky bones, and tough, dry meat.
Raw. Chalky. Sinuous.
They are break down and soon there will be nothing left to keep in my inner-outer space.
Physics will loose all hope of ever regaining me.
Biology will be forgotten and thrown to compost.
I am outside the boundaries.
Can't you feel the space between "you" and "I"?
They'll ask me this and other human paraphernalia, trying for a nerve to attach to. To tether me down back inside the body.
But, I am outside their boundaries.
Not for a country, a town, a love, or knowledge.
No, not for anything.
I will let my body fall away to not quite dust in the praries; sopping marsh in the tundra; or sylph on the shield.
I will let it slip away until it's wrinkly and supple like a rum soaked raisin.
Then my space can sleep, buzzing and warm, before inching out of the drunk body (It isn't a "my" thing anymore; no possessive pronoun is needed) and into the sky.
Posted by sm at 12:18 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I followed the old man with the stroller until he disappeared behind a building. He seemed like he did not care about anything except pushing his stroller. I pictured a dog to be in it, or maybe it was just empty. I felt sorry for him. Now I feel sorry for myself because I assume he is crazy.
Posted by sm at 5:46 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Once upon a time there was a homeless man who played the violin. Everyday he would stand outside beside the pretty restaurants of the ugly city and play. Sometimes people threw him a coin or two. Most times they did not. The homeless man played all day until the bottom of his cap was filled, then he would return to the city shelter for sleep. He did this everyday for many years until one early-evening in November he passed away. The city people did not notice for months. November turned to December. December to January. January to February.
Finally, on the fourteenth of February, Valentine's Day, a small girl who remembered the violin playing homeless man went to his playing place to give him a valentine. She had thought he must have been lonely with no one in the world to care for or be cared about. When she reached the pretty restaurants at the heart of the ugly city she saw that the violin man was not there. She cried on the way home for worry of him.
More months passed. The little girl begged and complained to her mother about the disappearance of the violin man until she gave in to go see his empty playing space. The mother then understood. Both mother and daughter started to feel a surge inside of them that bubbled up from below their belly-buttons to the crests of their tongues. Golden music was trickling over and between their taste buds tasting like Polyhymnia, and forced them to sing. People on the street stopped, one by one, and listened. The golden virus sluiced out of their mouths and quickly onto the sidewalk, spreading at an alarming rate and, seemingly, endless volume. People were diving down to touch it as fast as possible, they wanted to experience this soul clutching music! Soon the whole city was shimmering a golden haze and everyone knew the life of the violin man.
At least, that's what I hope to happen when I die.
Posted by sm at 5:04 PM
Friday, October 24, 2008
Maybe one day I'll fly out the window like a stream of perfume. I'll waft over the roofs tops and mingle with smoke stacks, absorbing particles of all different kinds. My scent will change; it will leave bits and pieces scattered across the sky and in between unseen surfaces. After years of travelling through a world of smells, I will have dispersed and weakened. But, I will be in every breath you take.